So now we finally hate each other
me and she
I had enough long time ago
keeping quiet
keeping patient
I hate her
she hates me
so I guess we are even

My chains

Why is life so painful
why is everything so ugly
why am I here
My chains 
has linked me
to other people
that wil never
let me go
even after their own
bodies has decayed 
and decomposed
In my mind they are
alive and still fresh
I hope things will
But this is not 
likely to happen 
anytime soon 
therefore I have
lingered in the darkness
of my soul
I have hidden in their mind
living their life for them
I will not anymore
even though I will not be free
I will always try be me
and try to be free

but they are 


I know 
It is to late
everything should have been done before
long time before now
I am overdue
I am to late
I am to much
I am to little
and so on
I do not care
I have to live anyway

At this very moment

es I am feeling bad
very bad
but this is hard for me
I cannot solve
your anxieties

Your lost years


All the time you
spent online
and all the time you
spent offline

This is now all gone
only the bleak
now and
possible the distant future