Lost

I fight but

I do not know

Why I fight

Why I love

Or hate

It is all

Going

Through me

But not from

Me

Nights in the office

I am feeling lonely and that is OK

No one will understand my words

My words so empty and void

Trying to put the assignment given to me

Together

Why?

I do not know

Just writing through the night

Dreaming of my car driving

Too fast in the main street

While others car parked

In the middle of the road

Waiting idle

But where am I going?

The game

Agony and pain
Is the name of
The game

Here I am alone
In my labyrinth
Thinking on my
next move

But in the end
I end up here
again and agin

The spring is far away

 

 

Nightmares

Suddenly I am not listed
It is late at night
And tomorrow
I will start
writing my dissertation
I log in on my phone
Not registered
I log in on my computer
No, suddenly I am out
Of the system again
Sleepless night
Trying to put strategies
Together
Now at 7 am
I do not know
Last Friday
I checked and
I was in
Started to prepare
And this very night
I am out again
So here we are

Battlefield

I fight an uneven battle
I know that I will never
Win

Life is short
Soon it will be gone
Leaving the wind
Behind me on my
Battlefields

Summer surprised us
Left us all dusty and
thirsty for more
Victories
But now the snow
falls and hands are
getting cold and weak

Still I will run thins
Autumn of my days
In hope for surrender
But who will it be?