Month: April 2020

Prepaid meaning

Dreaming

Trying to wake up

Not sure if I

Want to

Trying to find words

Losing most of them

The silence is trespassing

The tired mind

Only slowly recovering

Tired of living

Among the dead

I entered a dark forest

In search of a door

Leaving the fear behind

Every time I see

The train arriving

At the station

I know

That there’s an option

Staying, living

On the platform

Waiting

There is an option

Front or back

Promise of suffering

Or end to suffering

Dying is not easy

Knowledge is one

Of many keys

I remember

That I

Once had

An agenda

Long forgotten

Still vibrant

Fire destroying my mind

Losing grip

Losing sight

Hoping for something better

Knowing it will not come

That easy

Everything is fine

And everything is

Good

But not true

Avoiding the deep fear of being

Myself in the harsh daylight

Trying to see

Clearly

But the mind

Is very lost

Losing meaning

Finding water

Hot, clear source of eternity

No value

No action

No dreams

Just a lot of

TIME