Trying
Even though
I know it is to
Late
Rushing Thorough
Have no time
For this mental mind
I have no room
For medieval meditation
I want life to get
Better right now
Searching For The Real World
Going out into the margins
The places where I can get
A decent perspective
A place from where
It is possible to understand
The world once again
Stress
Footsteps on the rock
Memories are still relevant
Relentless trials and a lot of errors
The footsteps are eternal
Our ambitions is not
The Best thing
The midlife depression
is a fact
Dealing with it smoothly
Trying to forget
The future or
Getting lost in the past
Just a rainy
Present remains
Life Hacks
Some days
Life lacks meaning
Direction and hope
I am just here being
Existing
But some days
Pain is being conquered
Mishaps
I did not know if I did
Anything wrong or
Just happened
To be in her way
Everything from that point on
Was my fault
Again and again
For the last ten years
What an awful way
To waste ones life
Sliding
Back in the bad place
Where I don’t want to be
Sliding down towards
Being nice and pleasant
Hiding the problem and
Frustration
As much as possible
If I can stop that fall
I can do anything
I want
Outside the Dream
Waking up is always painful
A meaningless
Interruption of the dream
Life is a form of suffering
Given to us
Not by a merciful God
But a punishment
For something unknown
Maybe we just happened
To be clay, available
To an almighty creator
Indifferent to us
Most of the time
A past time for an
All powerful force
Already bored
Morning Entertainment
The fight started
Already in
Early morning
A never ending
Conflict
Revolving around
Who has done
What and when
Always the other
Persons fault
Ongoing relentless
Stress
And the eternal excuses for being
In this eternal stress mode