Quiet

Silence is a great thing

Nobody listens

Nobody hears

I am full of fears

Still in this house

I find peace

The Story

Making up for the loss

That cannot be covered

Trying to heal the wounds

That cannot be healed

Limping on through life

Without any hope

Without any purpose

The day is long

The night will be sleepless

I am here

Hear me out

Before I leave

And my story

Is gone

Another War

There is no place for me here

Have to find another one

Another space, another situation

We have to make a change

I have to change

It is not easy

When the mind is not with you

But against you

It is a civil war

Within

Bad Times

I know

I have to fight

But

I have been fighting

My whole life

Every time things get worse

Only temporary victories

Nonstop

Agony has no limits

A ongoing feeling

Of immediate disaster

This will not end well

And it will never end

Is the feeling

Only short moments of relief

Comes suddenly and unexpected

Starting Over

I feel the pain of being here

Trapped in my history

And fear of the future

What to do

Where to go

How to find motivation

Building a life from scratch

The Old Man

Here I am

A very old man

With a lot of wrinkles

A lot of mindfulness

Will not help that

Time can obviously not be reversed

Life has been running it’s cause

Here we are 2020

Without friend, future or finances

Still life goes on flowing

Down, down the drain

In a systematic way