Whatever I do
Will go wrong
Whatever I go
Whenever
Forever
Nevertheless
Never mind
It was just one
Of many illusions
Prayer
Being Worried
Sometimes anxiety
Makes you crazy
Consuming life as it is
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Probably Not Anytime Soon
What meaning are there
In writing and fighting
All my text will tell is loneliness
I have been around for so long time
Left without any hope
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Leftovers
The house of power is gone
Replaced by temporary shelter
Before demolition
That will make room
For more power
In a different shape
A madman made this
Possible
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The End
This is the end
The very good end
Happy or unhappy
It does not matter
It will soon
Be over
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Waiting In The Basement
Everything is pending
An eternal doom
Of glom and
Rainy weather
Will we ever be released
From this underworld or
Are we lost here
Forever and ever
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Hideout
Hiding in the dark
Like a spider
Waiting for better times
While the noisy monsters outside
Keeps running around
Making life difficult
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Aftermath
Life did not end
It just became more
Complicated and lonely
I did not back off
I stayed put and lost
Because I had not enough
Money and support
Or was there other reasons
The mind is moving in circles
Under the hot sun
Our history together
And my fathers projection of me
Being everything he despised
Why would he help me then?
He did see me as unable,
Unpractical, useless creature
That he had to put down
As always, as in the past
This black shadow of my life
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Wartime
I cannot control
My anxiety
Only calm it
A little
I do not know
Why I feel
Like I do
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Broken Mind
Working with difficult matters
I lost my strength
Trying to lift heavy things
With a broken arm
But a life without love
Is always hard to stand
That fills up my time and thoughts
There are no solutions,
No easy way out,
breaking up is hard
Staying is also hard,
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