Allergic Reaction

Once upon a time

I tried to play

The game

But I failed

Very miserable

Being left with my feelings

Of not being able to live

Anxiety and frustration

Blocked thinking and frustration

This has been me

Instability

Everything is in extremely

Bad balance at the moment

I try to think

What happened

With me?

I recognize the pattern

Still it is hard to change

Maybe an emergency break

Running away

Downhill

Finally the depression

Reached me

Back home

Downhill a bad day

As a dysfunctional family work

We bring each other down

Time Stop

When the time broke down

I stayed in my room

For a very long time

Before returning

To the world

Only to find

That nothing had changed

Everything was in

The balance

But the weight had changed

I was now a very old man

Prayer

Whatever I do

Will go wrong

Whatever I go

Whenever

Forever

Nevertheless

Never mind

It was just one

Of many illusions

Mad Monday Notice

i don’t feel

Just am so tired

And still the sun shines

Behind the cloud

The pine-trees moving in the wind

Talking their own language

Making their conclusion

Is another time you know now

But what time is it?

What time is it now?

The time of hot, hot summer

And strange diseases

Or the time of other things

We don’t know

Around us

Around us

People are dying

We go around pretending

Is nothing going on

People isolate and procrastinate

Getting angry, drunk or sad

Anything to get out of the mad, mad place

That has become our space

Lost Consciousness

Losing my mind

All the thing

All the thoughts

Are being demolished

Destroyed

Soon I will not know

Who I once was

Just a human leftover

In a big city

Visiting

Went to the future for a visit

Today

In every way

This was just too much

An adventure into

The middle age

And back?

Everything the same but more extreme

More cafés and more heat

Resting on security and money (a lot of that)

I had enough

Went with a Ice bear back to the past

Looking for ice and a bit of snow

By the Sea

My Memories is like

The walls of a crumbling

Castle by the sea

Most details are lost

Washed out into the sea

Some things remains

In tatters broken

By time and ignorance

Slowly slowly

I mend my castle again

Waiting for the next storm