Grey Days

Cleaning out the pain

The loss,

Humiliation

Being asked to accept

Being declared sick and incompetent

By the people I trusted and loved

Just nothingness and a realisation

That everything will get worse

In the autumn

Afternoon

I am bleeding

Losing energy

All the time

Soon it will

All be over

Did not manage

To solve the riddle

Of being me

Pacified and blocked

No solution in sight

Only the sun is higher

Every day in the sky