When the anxiety gets
Too mighty
Too strong and powerful
Like a river of rage
And fear
Cold, cold river
Like in the far north
Where the trees will not grow
One try to survive
It is hard and confusing
Just being here
Eventually it might work
At the moment
I am under the ice
Looking for open water
And bluer skies
Desperate
Pain is a useful strategy
Sometimes it is working
Most of the times
It does not
Just blocking all intentions
All actions
Still it repeat it self
Again and again
Bleach
Bleak light through thick clouds
Makes the world grey
The future looks bleak
I try to turn
Around without being
Able to do it
Feeling weak
Incapable of changing my life
Just not this time
This life
The Return To Despair
Trying to find reasons
To have some hope
But there is nothing
To be found here
Just a lot of people
Busy with their
Own mind
Just like me
Home
The plan was to leave
But instead I am stuck
In this dirty house
Filled with frustration
And unwashed clothes
Nobody is happy
Nobody has the energy
To leave this hell
Well deserved of course
But still strong enough
To keep you stuck
Our own home is ultimately
Our own prison
Alive
Whatever keeps me alive
It has to be strong
When despair
Grips the soul
In the middle of the night
On Depression
Finding a book by the tree. Actually a quite useful book
“Depression in Context” it works with positive reinforcement
When we are trapped in a negative spiral it can be because
We do not get low levels positive reinforcement and therefore
Get stuck in feeling depressed or not even get out of the depression
Which makes us much more passive and limited. We do not get out in life
Meeting people and it becomes a circle that is much more limited then
What is needed.
Act
New Day
Desperate
But clear sighted
Ready for change
Starting a new day
Reasons
Desperate to find an answer
Somewhere for any reason
Any logic will do
That is the nature
Of being
Desperate
On Desperation
When the desperation
Has been taken hold
Of your body and soul
Be aware of your toes