Cold Water

When the anxiety gets

Too mighty

Too strong and powerful

Like a river of rage

And fear

Cold, cold river

Like in the far north

Where the trees will not grow

One try to survive

It is hard and confusing

Just being here

Eventually it might work

At the moment

I am under the ice

Looking for open water

And bluer skies

Desperate

Pain is a useful strategy

Sometimes it is working

Most of the times

It does not

Just blocking all intentions

All actions

Still it repeat it self

Again and again

Bleach

Bleak light through thick clouds

Makes the world grey

The future looks bleak

I try to turn

Around without being

Able to do it

Feeling weak

Incapable of changing my life

Just not this time

This life

Home

The plan was to leave

But instead I am stuck

In this dirty house

Filled with frustration

And unwashed clothes

Nobody is happy

Nobody has the energy

To leave this hell

Well deserved of course

But still strong enough

To keep you stuck

Our own home is ultimately

Our own prison

Alive

Whatever keeps me alive

It has to be strong

When despair

Grips the soul

In the middle of the night

On Depression

Finding a book by the tree. Actually a quite useful book

“Depression in Context” it works with positive reinforcement

When we are trapped in a negative spiral it can be because

We do not get low levels positive reinforcement and therefore

Get stuck in feeling depressed or not even get out of the depression

Which makes us much more passive and limited. We do not get out in life

Meeting people and it becomes a circle that is much more limited then

What is needed.

Act