Searching for new sensations
To fill the void
Being surrounded by
Neurotic people creates
A feeling of being drained
NO energy left
Just a lot of musts
The Big Void
Shadow play
Life changes quickly
But your family
Does not see
Any difference
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The Burden
To carry around
The burden of distrust
From your family
Will stop you from
Growing up
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Love
Love is beautiful madness
An insane projection
That takes over your
Mind and body
Numbing your senses
Until you wake up
After a few years
With a family
That can transfer
The madness into
The unforeseeable future
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Melodrama
Living in a consistent
Melodrama
Every morning and evening
It has no end
Just a continuous crisis
And then of course
The shutdown of feelings
Watching Netflix, eating and drinking
Too much,
Running
To much
But it will stick to you
So that you cannot leave
Year after year
Staying in this dysfunctional pattern
Until it breaks your health
And you are thrown out
Like trash in the backyard
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The Wanderer’s Story
My life is over and done with
Only the last chapter remain
The snow keeps falling
Outside the window
And it will keep on falling
Life were never easy
I never let it be
No one around me
Took it easy
The uneasy life
Got into everything
We all got caught in our
Patterns
Until I woke up
One morning and realised
That it did not matter
And walked of
Into to the wild
I never looked back
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Growing Up
Chaos and semi total attention
Never peace just a lot of desires
Demands, crying and screaming
That is what is like to grow up
When we teach them that
Behavior
Reflecting the parents narcissistic nature
Creating that beautiful wheel of Karma
Spinning round and round
In eternity until the almighty had
Enough and destroys it all
Eventually
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Downhill
Finally the depression
Reached me
Back home
Downhill a bad day
As a dysfunctional family work
We bring each other down
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Running
Keep on running
Running and running
The best way of keeping
Destructive actions at bay
Meaningless words are meaningless
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Blind Spots
Parapraxis
What am I not seeing
What are the blind spots
The path that brought me here
It is weird
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