Keeping the Wake

You keep me

Awake at night

Complaining for

This and that

Always blaming

It is never your fault

Throwing the children

Around like they are

Pawns for you

Which they are for you

But not for me

In the end

You know I will

Leave you

Relationship can

Never be built

On grievances

Haunted

I am haunted

By what I left behind

To much unfinished

Business

anxiety and panic

All collected into

My soul

After so many years

I have been getting

Used to it

The State of Sweden

Like it is not easy to know

I opened my eyes

And realize that the man

That I used to know

Had killed himself

Half a year ago

He had a son

That played harmonica

At his funeral

All his friends and foes

Wrote how sorry

They were

And that his suicide

And that it had left a scar

I once met him in a bar

He told me how his life

Had turned sour

Losing control

And the right to see his son

Not even speak on the phone

Attachment is for fouls

They will easy take away

Their pray and your

Beloved whatever

I know that if I care

To much

My soul will be touched

When they take my children

Away

Fear

Fear is a strong feeling

It rules your life

Your daily routine

Always prepared for aggression

Your shoulders up

Expecting a hit

Anyone will take from you what you have

Do not sleep

Be prepared

For disaster

Origami

The night relieves me temporary

Of my fear and anxiety

I will lose a lot of things

The next few days

But I do accept

This

Because I know the love will end

The world as we know it

That makes me rest in my own

Mindlessness and sleep

 

Our fear

The fear lives inside us

We carry it with us like a handbag

Sometimes it is strong like a gigantic man

Other times it is just nagging us

But we can never walk away

Quick as a snake when called

It distort our action and cripples the mind

And sometimes save our lives