Bad Times

I know

I have to fight

But

I have been fighting

My whole life

Every time things get worse

Only temporary victories

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I am looking

For the door

In order to run

Away to the fun

Leaving all that

Nonsense behind

This is the way

I survive

New Things and Attractions

Opening the fun fair again

Filled with dysfunctional

Family attraction

Ready to turn your life

Upside down

Just outside the town

For the whole world

To look at

And be so amused

While you are getting abused

Hurray hurray

Is our dysfunctional family show

Tonight

Just pay and enjoy

Be happy that you don’t

Have to play in this ploy

Night Walker

The night is long

Full of errors and

Illusions

Sleepless and haunted

By the failures in everyday life

I went out into the woods

Walking to greet the darkness

The essence of existence

Dangers lurking everywhere

In my head like a ghost

Creative Reality

Realizing that I create my own

Limits and stops

Partly is my own thinking

Partly the circumstances

Partly the struggle with

My own feeling of guilt

This life is not my life

It is my life but I am so

Tired feeling bad

But trying to understand

What I feel

Traps

Sometimes your fear

Becomes a trap

Being in a war

Makes it easy

To forget that

You are not in a war now

You do not need to feel fear

Here

Dogs and Family

The lost places

When this was mine

And in the same

Time never mine

Earning and buying

The illusion of being a part

Of a family

Eventually it turned out

That we were nothing

Just dogs fighting for

A piece of flesh