The eternal strife to get things together
What do I have to do
How do I have to do this
I don’t know
It is more like a list
My soul is divided
As it always has been
Getting the Mind Together
Give In
Sometimes one have to give in
To realise that it is not possible
Or possible if it
Was not you
But someone else
That is not you
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Conudrum
Struggle with being myself
I do not know
Who I am or
Why
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Contrasts
Outside and inside
So different places
Same location and still
Not the same
Inside the chaos, confusion and frustration
Outside the order of man
The birds and the tree
Well ordered paths
Good maner people
Behaving well
Inside a war between
Wounded souls
Wounded egos
Lost aspiration
Outside too cold
Inside too warm
No rest
Only relentless repetition
Of patterns learned
From long time ago
In the great childhood days
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At It Again
Waking up after a really
Long night, that never
Ended of driving
Through the forest
I try to change
My way of working
But lost out
Now it is time
To get back and do it
Again
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What a Fight
What am I fighting for?
What is the meaning
Of this life?
I created a place
To hide
That I cannot keep
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The Last Stand
Frustrated and again put down
I tried to climb up again
And here I am
Still in the mode
For fighting
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A War In The Rain
Grand fight that can not be won
Hard journey home
Inner house
In the rain
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The Struggle
Fighting and losing
My mind in the same time
Fearing and hoping
No end in sight
Just the cycle of life
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Conflicts
Tired in the sofa
Exhausted
Not able to move
Still I want to fight
I want to win
Just go for it
Tired because of
The resistance that
Consist of wanting
To go and knowing
The anger and frustration
Of me doing my own thing
The inner conflict that
Has thrown me into depression
Because whatever you do
It is wrong in one way or
Another
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