Passing By

Looking out of the window

Seeing the clouds passing by

Covering the pale blue sky

Makes think of why I left you

That bad night

Instead of taking the fight

But losing fights has been my life

And eventually you get tired of it

A Moment of Shadow

I am just a shadow

Of myself

Looking out through

The window

I could be so much more

But here I am

Almost invisible gray

Time has past and a lot of things

Is not possible anymore

Still the light from the rising sun

Shines at my lap

Heating cold bones

Losing Ground

Piece by piece

You lose yourself

When you have run out of energy

Resources, money

Every opportunity can become a threat

Of proving your incompetence

Your value is always limited now

Where is my place

Where can i reverse this tide pf destruction

Or is it to late?

Discrete Murder

Deep roots

Craving water

Running under

Our feet’s

We do not know them

We do not care for them

Until

They makes us fall

Like helpless children

Or very old men

Crawling for mercy

Striving for safe places

Ignoring the fact

That there are no safe spaces

All around us is nature

Nurturing us, killing us softly

From within

No Pardon

Watching the world

Passing by

Quickly without pardon

Running along

Trying to catch up

But that is a failed race

I am a failure

Just like you

My friend I am going to perish

Into the the sea of forgotten

Memories and things

Retreat

The days are short

In the north

More like a combined

Dawn and dusk

Creating a depressive

Mode of inaction

Retreating and defeats

Is in my mind

Lost causes and cold very

Cold nights

Pansar

Always on the lookout

Ready to protect myself

This is me

What I became

Always in fear

Always feeling inferior

And superior at the same time

My life has no purpose

No meaning

There was no plan

There is no plan

There will be no plan

I am just here

At the Bottom

In lowest of the low

In the bottom of the pit

I have to collect myself

Put all the energy

Together

See if anything

Eventually will grow