Searching

Lost in the snow

Looking for a way

Out of the maze

Somewhere

I still believe

That is possible

But what is outside

Of that maze?

The Boy

Once I was

A happy young man

Being a fool and

Dropping out of school

Traveling the world

Met rich and poor

I opened many closed

Door

Sensing my limits

I met this beautiful girl

From home out there

In the world

I stood there

Naked and gay

In front of her

High as a kite

She told me

I love you

Just the way You are

Just do not Take it too far

And that was the way it had to be

Some but not to much

I started to wither away

All my dreams grow old

And in the end there was

Not much left

I had gone old

The children had left

For school

Lonely and lost

I had to find

New dreams

Overworked

Tired

I will not save you

Lost life

I lost my life that day

When you told me

That you had taken

The decision that

Would change

Our life forever

Now I am just

A shadow

Eating, sleeping, walking

My life is just a shadow life

Meeting other shadows

No need to connect

When they pass by

Next to me on the streetSunset tree

 

Lost

Feeling empty, lost

Trying to fill the day

With content

Trying to learn things

But they slip out of my mind

Trying to work

But don’t know

Where to begin

Just lost

 

Retreat

The days are short

In the north

More like a combined

Dawn and dusk

Creating a depressive

Mode of inaction

Retreating and defeats

Is in my mind

Lost causes and cold very

Cold nights

Retrieving

Clarity is a gift

Precious as gold

I lost my confidence

Only at night

In the deep silence

Can I partly retrieve

Who I once was