Fallen Fruit

Heavy and not far
falls
the fruit from the tree
It is not my life
after all
I failed now
so many times
to change anything in my fate
and this made me so frustrated
but never mind
this is my life
now
and there is
no much to about it
The sun still shines
and the leaves are
green in the end of May

 

Eternal outsider

Outside
Inside
Upside
Downside
Close your eyes and then…
Run, run, run
Talk, talk, talk
Listen
Smile, Smile, Smile
Run, run, run

Go home
Sleep
Then forget everything about it

 

Blocked

I am blocked
I cannot deal
with this anymore

Year after year
the same problem
and the same
inability
to do anything
about it

Deep in my heart
there are so much pain
I do not know why anymore
never mind
This might not be important

Hollow

I am in the sun
talking about
something
or 
nothing 
trying to figure out
why the
summer is suddenly
here
inside of me
is winter 
of course
but I can 
still enjoy 
that beauty around me
Maybe one day

The Wind

I want to live
I just do not know
how to do it anymore
Is there hope?
Is there a future?
Outsiders of all kinds
comes to great me
but the wind 
the cold wind from the north
will freeze all aspirations 
of flowering, fruitsb

Half

Now they gone cut me in half
and half
I will be
This is not the ultimate option
I will be the half-man 
half-witted 
and not much more
but this is the price
I pay
The life I never opt for
but were given
by some distant god
in a sky
or maybe he lives in a pie
however
to be cut in half does
not do me any god
at all 

Empty

Empty as the wind
Hollow and broken
No messages today
No one to listen
to my words
as they fall to the
ground
Vibrating universe
so full of life
and still in this
year 
I am empty

Loneliness

So here I am again
in this room
In this place
filled with 
young students
aspiring the good life
and succes 
since my future already past
and is gone this does not
worry me so much
I will be whatever it will be

Knowledge

I know 
It is to late
everything should have been done before
long time before now
I am overdue
I am to late
I am to much
I am to little
and so on
I do not care
I have to live anyway