Nightmare Territory

The day has turned into night

The evening was filled with

Frustration and fear

The options are few

When anxiety looms

At every conversation

When your friends

Becomes a foe

Again and again

Dysfunctional patterns

Repeating themselves forever and ever

In a very dull pattern

I will not save my self

But suffer, fail and die

As this is what I am supposed to do

Repeating generations of tragedy

The earth is black, the soil brown

Clay underneath and at the bottom

The hard solid rock

Agony Of The Bed

Another sleepless night

Waking up at three thirty

Thinking on what

Could or should be done

Thoughts and panic at

The same time

Making breading hard

And the walls in the room

Closes in on you

Like being buried

At the bottom

Of the sea

Only sleep will

Give relief

Midday Night

Night is in the middle of the day

Sun is shining but in my mind

It is still the middle of the night

Looking for ways out desperate

Hungry, angry and lonely

Knowing the sun will never

Rise again in my mind

Living like a vampire

In the middle of the day

Openings

The door is wide open

Answers not to be found

Courage is a good

Most useful

When everything seems

Meaningless

Leaving the safe space and venture

Out into the void

The deep darkness of the forest

Dreaming, leaving reality or

The illusions we have about

What is real or not

Raging Fear

Fear is a terrible feeling

It hunts you down at night

Mixing memories and anticipation

Keeping you awake in agony

Agonising and reflecting

What you should have done

All those mixes of unclarity

To no use