Hiding in the shadow
Listening to that busy
Woman talking about
Her grief
Stunned and silence
I listen and think
On who I am now
And who I wanted
To be
Nothing has been
Achieved
Darkness of The Mind
Locked In
Closed perspective, closed people
I do try to learn from my mistake
Maybe this is possible
Maybe not
Slowly moving masses of snow and
Really cold weather
Remains me why I once left this country
Now I am a prisoner here
This great gilded cage
Makes the choices rather
Limited
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The Control
Trying to keep control
But it is a waste of time
My stomach aches and
My mind is lost
Not here but still here
I do not need it anymore
I Let it go!
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Debt
Guilt is such a precious thing
Kept and taken care of
Grown by those who need
Control over other
A high price to pay
A prison for the those
Who carries the mantle
Of shame
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Volatile
My inner voices
Always tells me
The wrong thing
And here I am
Doing the same
Wrong things
All the time
The answer is
Always outside
Never inside
Inside is
Just a big mess
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Wasted Life
Anxiety keeps hunting
Me down
It is all around me
Realising I wasted
My life in so
Many ways
I cannot live
Like that
And still
I do
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Lost life
I lost my life that day
When you told me
That you had taken
The decision that
Would change
Our life forever
Now I am just
A shadow
Eating, sleeping, walking
My life is just a shadow life
Meeting other shadows
No need to connect
When they pass by
Next to me on the street
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Haunted
I am haunted
By what I left behind
To much unfinished
Business
anxiety and panic
All collected into
My soul
After so many years
I have been getting
Used to it
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Evening Prayer
Tired and full of shame
I end this day
I am so tired
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Silent communication
The pain is immense
No mercy
Just moving around
Trying to think
Other things
Love is no option anymore
No one will come by here
Only age and bornes remain
Wait I will come
You will not be there
We will meet in different times
Only having civilized conversations
Over decades
