Desperate

Up and running again

The anxiety

Keep me running

Feel like having

High Fever

My mind is not

Clear, lost

In circles

And

In flight-mood

Still the power

Is there

Somewhere

Ambivalence at nine

Driving aimlessly around the city

Trying to forget what happened

Earlier this afternoon

I am so tired of surviving

I want something more out of my life

I want to have courage and take action

Running away is no solution

But still it is very tempting

Running in Circles

Quickly running away

Finding new ways to survive

I wish that someday

That life should not only

Include trying to heal wounds

But to live a good life

To have friends

To make love

To live in the wild nature

To swim in the sea

But now I am here

In my circles