Things are getting out of control
I am here again
Returning to a temporary
Safe space
To rest my wounded soul
Hiding
Ending the Relationship
Anxiety cannot help
It only tells you to run
Run quickly
Everything more complex
Than that anxiety will not solve
Anything
But here I am running around
Prepared to leave
Without money or anything else
Needed to live
Just starting all over again
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In Search of Remains
Trying to find words
Find meaning
Things that are
Important sometimes
That once were me
I lost my self
I am nothing now
Just an empty hole
Pretending to be
Human
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Self-hate
I hate myself
Still I have to
See myself
In the mirror
Everyday and
Listen to my chatter
That is my
Punishment
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Contemplative Self Destruction
Here we are in this dirty place
The people that we are
Are the ones we hated yesterday
We despise ourself
Because in our own eyes
We are failures
Creatures not worth living
We thought that we had
All the answers but this is not the case
We are losers
Soon dead
Leaving the world
To be destroyed
By the more successful
Of our stupid spices
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