A Fake Life

To live without an income

Is to live in the shadow

Of other people’s money

Their will and their whim

Moves you around like

A puppet

The shame is great enough

To kill you, through you

In front of a train or tram

Instead you hide

Building a fake identity

That eventually becomes

What you are

Not solving, just hiding

Because the shame

Is so great

Where to start from that?

A Moment of Shadow

I am just a shadow

Of myself

Looking out through

The window

I could be so much more

But here I am

Almost invisible gray

Time has past and a lot of things

Is not possible anymore

Still the light from the rising sun

Shines at my lap

Heating cold bones

Shadowland

Running away from my shadow

Into the land of shadows

Embracing the darkness

The obscurity of the mind

And a feeling of dizziness

While trying to figure out

How to survive in this

Land of the night

The One

Frustrated and crazy

After living in celibacy

Forever (or at least a few weeks)

He decided that all energy

Would be put on hold

Until the perfect one and

Only lonely looney would come by

Eventually she did

And they lived

Unhappy ever after

Regrets

How I regret that I

Survived the war

I could be dead

Long time ago

Resting peacefully

In the memory

Of a few

So much better

So much better

Karma

But the winter

Is long as life

Itself

Bad Times

Dying city

Decaying city

Filled with rich filth

Destroying the mind and body

Slowly burning city

Falling apart at dusk

Armed men

Guarding cautiously and attaching their guns to their frail bodies

In case of other frail men trying to take what little gold

They might have

No cash has any worth any more

Only handouts of food and water

And of course the eternal metal

Shining so bright in our dirty hands

Disintegration

 

Now and again

I am back at being

A young boy

Being told

By others

About how much problem

I have an that I need

Professional care to manage

I believed that for a long time

Until I realized that I am a house

And that a house does not need

A bike or a car but a good roof

Lost life

I lost my life that day

When you told me

That you had taken

The decision that

Would change

Our life forever

Now I am just

A shadow

Eating, sleeping, walking

My life is just a shadow life

Meeting other shadows

No need to connect

When they pass by

Next to me on the streetSunset tree