Our Circles

We have our circles

He told me, – of famous men in position

I smile and could see

How small he was

Every word has its antithesis

Every man has his shadow

Don’t make your shadow to dark

It might engulf you in the end

Mishaps

I did not know if I did

Anything wrong or

Just happened

To be in her way

Everything from that point on

Was my fault

Again and again

For the last ten years

What an awful way

To waste ones life

The Parasite

So I been told

All through the night

How bad I am

“You are a parasite”

The parasite told me

While sucking

My blood

“You used me”

She said taking

My money and hope

“Love me, why don’t

You love me

Now I am burned out

Because of you”

While running around

In circles blaming

The world

Pitying herself

A Fake Life

To live without an income

Is to live in the shadow

Of other people’s money

Their will and their whim

Moves you around like

A puppet

The shame is great enough

To kill you, through you

In front of a train or tram

Instead you hide

Building a fake identity

That eventually becomes

What you are

Not solving, just hiding

Because the shame

Is so great

Where to start from that?

A Moment of Shadow

I am just a shadow

Of myself

Looking out through

The window

I could be so much more

But here I am

Almost invisible gray

Time has past and a lot of things

Is not possible anymore

Still the light from the rising sun

Shines at my lap

Heating cold bones

Shadowland

Running away from my shadow

Into the land of shadows

Embracing the darkness

The obscurity of the mind

And a feeling of dizziness

While trying to figure out

How to survive in this

Land of the night

The One

Frustrated and crazy

After living in celibacy

Forever (or at least a few weeks)

He decided that all energy

Would be put on hold

Until the perfect one and

Only lonely looney would come by

Eventually she did

And they lived

Unhappy ever after