Answer to Shame

I am on the run

From the shame of being

Such a bad father

Being such an incompetent son

And impotent lover as well

No one loves my soul

I am so bad

And I am so tired of being

Projected as bad for not fulfilling

Other people’s dreams

I am not bad

Just the answer to your projections

The One

Frustrated and crazy

After living in celibacy

Forever (or at least a few weeks)

He decided that all energy

Would be put on hold

Until the perfect one and

Only lonely looney would come by

Eventually she did

And they lived

Unhappy ever after

Hide Out

Fear and shames

Took me here

Hiding from

Everyone

Trying to erase

My existence

As much as

Possible

Failure is

Always

Unforgivable

I never try

Again

I always say

A Circle

Trying to find

A solution

As I have done

My whole life

Meaning and

The lack of meaning

Waiting to return

Back to point zero

For another cycle

Scheme

Illusions are great

I am making

A Ponzi scheme

For myself borrowing

Resources of the future

In the vain hope of getting

My life back later

It is working at the moment

Being Used

And now again

The same old story

Repeating to us

The wisdom, that one learn

Nothing, going into the same

Trap again and again

With open eyes

Not determined message

Care, care, care

For others

Care, care, care

For yourself

Reaching conclusion

While it is to late

And watching the ship

Sink deep into the ocean

It will sink again and again

While you are playing

Your own drama on play and repeat

And that is the base for our

Relationship

Trap

It has all gone too far

Too slowly

So that one does

Not think about it

And suddenly

You find yourself

In a place of no return

The problem is that

With open eyes

We walk into the trap

Knowingly

Thinking it will

Not be big problem

Then it is too late