Inside the Labyrinth

Losing my sense of self

Who I am

What I want

Everything becomes unclear

I am very lost here

With people very busy

And focused on them self

The pattern is built on pain

Avoiding and giving

And shame of course

Hiding in Plain Sight

Fear of being discovered

Naked, full of shame and pain

I am a lonely man

Surround by people dependent

And hostile to me

I tried to break the pattern

But I am not strong enough

So I dwell here in a borrowed room

Far away from all frustration

Conclusion

There are so many

Things to remember

So much shame

That number of failures

When leaving it all

Behind it does not matter

At all

The Spring Snow

Waiting for things

To end well or not

Life has long time ago

Lost its meaning

I just exist out of defiance

Against my country

That despises me

Heraclitus

Realizing that change

Is inevitable

No return

Pain is the name

Of that game

Shame and fear

All the things are

Connected

Still isolated

Shaming

So the story goes

My friend has been shamed

On the internet tribune

There is no justice

Anymore, just opinions

Anyone, anywhere

With or without reason

Entertainment for the masses

Destruction for the community

But life is more than that

Or not

A Fake Life

To live without an income

Is to live in the shadow

Of other people’s money

Their will and their whim

Moves you around like

A puppet

The shame is great enough

To kill you, through you

In front of a train or tram

Instead you hide

Building a fake identity

That eventually becomes

What you are

Not solving, just hiding

Because the shame

Is so great

Where to start from that?

Answer to Shame

I am on the run

From the shame of being

Such a bad father

Being such an incompetent son

And impotent lover as well

No one loves my soul

I am so bad

And I am so tired of being

Projected as bad for not fulfilling

Other people’s dreams

I am not bad

Just the answer to your projections

The One

Frustrated and crazy

After living in celibacy

Forever (or at least a few weeks)

He decided that all energy

Would be put on hold

Until the perfect one and

Only lonely looney would come by

Eventually she did

And they lived

Unhappy ever after

Hide Out

Fear and shames

Took me here

Hiding from

Everyone

Trying to erase

My existence

As much as

Possible

Failure is

Always

Unforgivable

I never try

Again

I always say