The Same Spring

Every spring is the same

My life is a great failure in every way

Planning to leave it all behind

Looking for methods, places and reasons

So I am sorry this is not working

Anymore

Still I go on

Event

Every year I climb

Out of this hole

Only to fall in it again

Every autumn

When the dark world

Returns

Playfulness

We felt the Disruption and

A frustration of the given order

That was slowly collapsing

In front of our eyes

The winter kept us safe

Stable

“Saving a little life in dry tubers”

Now that the winter was gone

The Spring of darkness in January

Spreading its demonic joy

While the polar vortex

Was fighting in the north

Our life took a different

Direction

Feeding the chaos and anxiety

Messing up our perfect

Spot on the planet

We could resist but choose

To go mad and join the game

A Day

The bad day has ended

It never started

It is all circular

Returning again and again

Gaining ground, losing ground

Life….

Green Spring

Life starts again after a long winter

Long nights and the

Gray days are coming to its end

The hope returns

Madness is created

In the sunshine of spring

Lust and return to life

Is a hard and beautiful thing

Stress

Running around the city

Like fool trying to find

Hope and prosperity

It is mostly lost in sight

My mind is empty

Feeling the stress again

How can one succeed

When the head is empty

And the thoughts are

Running in circles

Waiting for things

To go really bad

Springwater

Lost language and hope

The ability to write

Madness looming together

With depression

Trying to keep my grip

Sun rising higher in the sky

Everyday now in the early frozen spring

Sometimes

The best thing is the sun

Gone for most of the winter

To get to know the heating strokes

Again

It is an awful place to live

Your life in darkness

Takes it’s toll

Will is not being

Done for you

In this

Cold early spring

Trap

It has all gone too far

Too slowly

So that one does

Not think about it

And suddenly

You find yourself

In a place of no return

The problem is that

With open eyes

We walk into the trap

Knowingly

Thinking it will

Not be big problem

Then it is too late