Survival

Survival is not a necessary thing

I don’t care

Anymore

My life is awful

I cannot move

Just being a prisoner

Of my own making

Without being

Able to free myself

To End It All

When I give up

I do it

The whole way

Just until

I am ready

To kill my self

Then I stop

Taking the

Very long and troublesome

Way back

Each time a little harder

Another Day

Trying not to kill myself

Staying alive

Without a real life

Pretending meaning and hope

Everyday the same

Until the end of days

I fail and continue to fail

Life here is like that

Life there will be like that

One cannot escape oneself

Trapped

Aquarium

Giving life to these dirty walls

Life in the aquarium

Little oxygen, little life

What feeds us, what is feeding on us

What is uncertain,

The night falls already early,

Early in the morning

Run Away

When things are so bad

That you can not stay

Focused and everything

Is so sad

That you cannot live anymore

You are looking for the door

To another life or no life

At all

Then is time to get away

Run far away

Before you are getting

Killed or kill yourself

Just by accident

To Survive

Creating is surviving

Striving to grow

Out of my body

To grow out of my soul

To grow out of my brain

To outgrow my limitation

To receive

To give

To live

To die

Subway

I came to late

Just in time

When they sealed

Of the station

A woman in civil clothes

Telling people not to go

Down

Then came the fire trucks

Ambulances and police cars

With all their equipment

The water on the platform

Were the only remains

One hour later

The World

The latent virus of the Cold War never went away

It came back to us, full of new features

The world now

Divided between the rich, affluent or just crooked

While big men with guns standing on their guard ready to kill

Or at least harm while preparing another massacre in a tiny village

The battle for the control of resources has just started again

Plans are being made, the control so important, still such a

Great illusion being extended to every corner of human existence

New types of weapons being created more efficient

In killing is being put up, to win you need to create chaos

A great ladder for climbing while we are falling

Avoiding to prepare until the very last moment