Interference and Illusions

IMG_1872I fell into silence in this empty world

Realizing that maybe the solution

Is not what I thought

Lessons comes dearly

Takes effort and time

I paid with almost 25 years

For the illusion that my anxiety

My life could be better

With someone telling me what to do

That I would be free through therapy

What an illusion

What a crazy fantasy

I did choose this way of imprisonment

Wasting my life with useless talking

Instead of taking action and changing

The conditions

Shield

Protecting myself from the feeling that everything is too late

I lost so much time being trapped inside this

bubble that is my shield

Trying but it is too much

I am losing

Because of my own ambivalence

The oracle

Once I went to the oracle for solution

Desperate and lonely I had to long searched

For answer from every profession on earth

Freezing in the cold I waited outside the cave

The oracle was fat and small, he had a man

Translating the wisdom from Korean to English

You are a very difficult case the oracle told me

And made some kind sound to let the spirits go away

His hands moved up and down my body while he made

Mysteries sounds after an hour the translator told me

Come back tomorrow he will have to rest now

The next morning I went back, the same process followed

A lot of movements and hushing. You are very complicated

background, very complex. The oracle says he can only

Liberate you to 30 per cent.,,

OK I thought, lightning the burden by 30 per cent is ok

So I let him make his ritual…

Did I become free? Well maybe 30 per cent is not enough

But I wished that he had taken the right part of my problem