Empty as the wind
Hollow and broken
No messages today
No one to listen
to my words
as they fall to the
Vibrating universe
so full of life
and still in this
I am empty


So here I am again
in this room
In this place
filled with 
young students
aspiring the good life
and succes 
since my future already past
and is gone this does not
worry me so much
I will be whatever it will be


So now we finally hate each other
me and she
I had enough long time ago
keeping quiet
keeping patient
I hate her
she hates me
so I guess we are even

My chains

Why is life so painful
why is everything so ugly
why am I here
My chains 
has linked me
to other people
that wil never
let me go
even after their own
bodies has decayed 
and decomposed
In my mind they are
alive and still fresh
I hope things will
But this is not 
likely to happen 
anytime soon 
therefore I have
lingered in the darkness
of my soul
I have hidden in their mind
living their life for them
I will not anymore
even though I will not be free
I will always try be me
and try to be free

but they are 


I know 
It is to late
everything should have been done before
long time before now
I am overdue
I am to late
I am to much
I am to little
and so on
I do not care
I have to live anyway

At this very moment

es I am feeling bad
very bad
but this is hard for me
I cannot solve
your anxieties

Your lost years


All the time you
spent online
and all the time you
spent offline

This is now all gone
only the bleak
now and
possible the distant future


I feel pain 
I fell 
Now I can see
you through a veil
of mistrust
I know your motive 
but I do not understand
the way your mind is working
but all my life mother 
you eventually caused me sorrow 


On the road to 
All that moralizing 
all that, all that talking
all that walking
And with a stroke of pen
everything is gone

Confused In the Evening

I am so low now
there is not
a thing in the world
that can change
that now
I do not want
to feel
I do not want
to be
I do not want
to do 

Everything is pain
and pain is not power
It is just pain
You messed with
my brain
and now I do not
who I am 
and what I feel
Only the breathing is mine
at the moment