A Lost Day

Losing a meaning or two

Feeling like an empty shell

After sleeping on the floor

This night.

The days are so dark

Only some dawn and dusk

Never true dayligth

Feeling confused and hungry

Lost in myself and my own inability

To change,

To do the right thing

I do not know what is the right thing anymore

Silent communication

IMG_9767The pain is immense

No mercy

Just moving around

Trying to think

Other things

Love is no option anymore

No one will come by here

Only age and bornes remain

Wait I will come

You will not be there

We will meet in different times

Only having civilized conversations

Over decades

 

Your Words

Overworked, tired

Full of contractions and contradictions

The information and understanding

Of my predicament that you have

Your words made me stop and think

Feeling deadly tired like a wounded animal

I retreat to my cave

I do not want to be part of your world anymore

Still I will

The Silence of the City

Silence is the best of sound

So very expressive

The hard options

The non action plan

Not to act, not to do

Not to think, just a number of blocks

That has to be destroyed or endured

The winter will last a long time

Maybe forever

At least to long

As every year

Lost mind

Getting lost in my own thoughts

So lost that I do not know

Where I am going

Broken people, break things

She says

She did break me

I am so tired

Just want to sleep

The brain is on high alert

Just need to rest

Man

To feel like a man

Even under false pretenses 

Is so joyful

I want to sing

I want to give

All my joy

I can look everyone 

I meet in the eye again 

How little it takes to make a man 

A man again