Barren fields
Empty spaces
Watching the silence
Feeling fear, hope
And the moon
Gives no hope
Night
Agony Of The Bed
Another sleepless night
Waking up at three thirty
Thinking on what
Could or should be done
Thoughts and panic at
The same time
Making breading hard
And the walls in the room
Closes in on you
Like being buried
At the bottom
Of the sea
Only sleep will
Give relief
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Rebuilding
Resting the mind
Cannon make up
My mind, so complex
Cannot think or see
The patterns, whatever
I do is wrong in different
Way, I will lose out,
So where do I start in this
Desolate landscape
My destroyed world
Can anything grow here?
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Distressed
Stress is a bad thing
It makes you lose
Concentration and changes
Your perception
Suddenly you are lost
And unable to change
Before it is to late
Dramatic and inflexible
On the road to disaster
Still this pattern is so deeply
Ingrained in us
Doing our best, resulting
In the worst outcome
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Sunshine
The inner freedom might be
The only one, but outside
Here there are none
The only way to change is
Not to change,
A conundrum
Sad places of the mind
Eternal sadness and a
Great wound
Still so peaceful
In the rain
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Closed
Empty thoughts
Going through
My head I know
To much already
Don’t want to deal
With this
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Answer to Shame
I am on the run
From the shame of being
Such a bad father
Being such an incompetent son
And impotent lover as well
No one loves my soul
I am so bad
And I am so tired of being
Projected as bad for not fulfilling
Other people’s dreams
I am not bad
Just the answer to your projections
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Battles
Trying to avoid
Conflicts at all cost
I don’t have the privilege
To pick my fights anymore
They pick me
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The Control
Trying to keep control
But it is a waste of time
My stomach aches and
My mind is lost
Not here but still here
I do not need it anymore
I Let it go!
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The Best way to Make It Worse
This is a bad rotten day
Full of turmoil and
Wrong conclusions
Re-enacting past
Trauma in
Order to transfer them
To the next generation
I fall short
I know
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