Change

I am lost in

The idea of change

Maybe it is an illusion

Change might be a good idea

But a better idea is to be more

Of what I really am

Running around in a dead city

Trying to find a way to keep

Myself alive

Dealing With It All

For a long time

I was Striving to avoid

Dealing with

All the problems

They were so many,

So complicated,

And foremost,

They involved conflicts

Negotiations with other

That I felt so indebted to

But most of all it meant

That wiping up the dust

Making life more unpleasant

Than it already was

In the end

I realised that it wouldn’t matter

And my bad life

Would stay so bad

If I did not try to

Deal and solve

The problem

Friends

Embracing change

Whatever it means

Is so hard

Especially scaling down

Leaving thins behind

Not keeping everything

My life was so hard

When it comes to leaving

Trying to keep every false

Friend forever

Being so lonely

The Now And Here

I am here

Lost in this moment in time

With all it’s grief and misery

All it’s good and wonderful

Opportunities of the humankind

Still the white snow and human

Anxiety covers my world and limits

My action

Going Down

Trying to make up for yesterday

Keeping my brain in shape

While being extremely tired

That is the nature of

Unresolved conflict

They keep knocking you

Down

Endnotes to Life

Life is changing

A continuous process

A struggle against

The forces that wants

You to perish

The people who

Wants to maim you

Eventually

In the end of the day

You end up

Different and

In a completely

Different place