Growing Up

Chaos and semi total attention

Never peace just a lot of desires

Demands, crying and screaming

That is what is like to grow up

When we teach them that

Behavior

Reflecting the parents narcissistic nature

Creating that beautiful wheel of Karma

Spinning round and round

In eternity until the almighty had

Enough and destroys it all

Eventually

Another Dream

Then came the waves

Huge piles of water

Moving out of the ocean

Flooding the lawn

A lot of things came

Flying

I caught a kite

And gave it to

My older children

Warning them

That my wife

Was conspiring against me

They listen but

Did not believe me

So I left

Realising

That under the summersun

I had to find another place

To live and thrive

The Voices In The Head

Listening to the cliches in my head

If I believed in them I would be dead

When you are young

They are installed

By hammer and nail

In your head

They tell how to be

And that you are not free

They say it is

All in the family

Just the mosquitoes stay free

But the older you get

The more wrong

It gets to be

And you realize

That you never will get free

From the voices in the head

Until you are dead

Nights of No Sleep

Wild screams at night

Sadness and frustration

No limits for the emotions

The little child knows

No bound or limitations

All that energy and the tired

Parents trying to cope

The mood changes quickly

Only the love and memories

Remains for a while

Unnatural Museum

Old animals propped up

Behind glass, skeletons and stones

More bones, the dusty interior

Fills up with families and endless

Numbers of children

Running around screaming

A little life into the dead structure

Surviving Being a Partner to a Bipolar

Living with a bipolar partner can be very traumatic. All conflicts tend to be extreme. Whatever you are doing is completely wrong. You don’t deserve any credit for anything. No matter what you have done so far is never enough.

Then after that comes the change. She is so sorry for what happened and what she has done. Then there is a slight chance that you can agree on something. This agreement she might keep or not. But the that is s good start.

Once this pattern has repeated itself enough often. One start to adapt and create strategies for handling it. Eventually however it gets you and you can give up talking about your needs since they are not acceptable if he/ she does not feel well or is frustrated for one reason or another. It can be a family quarrel with a mother or something at work. You will have to carry the burden of that by being the target of aggression and merciless criticism for something completely different like putting the children to bed too late or in the “wrong ” way.

Scream and Hatred for Breakfast

The scream woke me up

What the hell the voice said

You are so lazy the voice said

Now I go

Confused and tired

I opened my eyes

She hated me

And left me with the children

Watching bad cartoons on TV

Today I started

To contemplate

Suicide as an option

If I don’t get out of here

The grey cold place

That is my so cold home

It’s just that I don’t want to die here

No meaning what so ever

I want to die in the sun

Feeling redemption and hope

But life goes on without meaning

Or purpose

The environment here is slowly

Breaking me down

Piece by piece

Just the writing keeps me going

For a while

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