Bleach

Bleak light through thick clouds

Makes the world grey

The future looks bleak

I try to turn

Around without being

Able to do it

Feeling weak

Incapable of changing my life

Just not this time

This life

Wasted Wisdom

Hope is a great quality

Hope is the best of drugs

Creating an illusion

Of what is possible

To do or not

Breaking the routine

Of heavy depression

Returning deeds

And actions

To the meager

Reality of patience

To End It All

When I give up

I do it

The whole way

Just until

I am ready

To kill my self

Then I stop

Taking the

Very long and troublesome

Way back

Each time a little harder

Up and down

Down and up

Around the town

Perfectly without

Any control

I travel around

Around before

Coming down

To face every Monday

Of my life

On Depression

Finding a book by the tree. Actually a quite useful book

“Depression in Context” it works with positive reinforcement

When we are trapped in a negative spiral it can be because

We do not get low levels positive reinforcement and therefore

Get stuck in feeling depressed or not even get out of the depression

Which makes us much more passive and limited. We do not get out in life

Meeting people and it becomes a circle that is much more limited then

What is needed.

Act

The Cliff

For such a long time

I have been hanging

On the cliff trying to

Keep to climb back

To no avail, everything

Has been tried

Therapy, drugs, exercise

Screaming, writing, painting and

Meditation

Still being able to exercise free will

Without constraints flowing freely

How wonderful that would be