So the eternal struggle starts
In this drama
There will never be any end to it
Different will
I am the week one
She is the strong
Money and thrift
Decides
Soon only the ashes
Will be left of me
Happy to leave this
Ugly planet
The Final Act
No Remorse
My life is almost over
I could not reach
Above my two main
Impairment
Anxiety and Love
In the form of being nice
There is no place for people
Like me in this world
And I am happy to leave
Just like an old elephant
Leaving the evil people
To handle their own
Misfortune and
Eventually subcomb
Joining the dinosaur
And Dodo birds
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The Third Night
I could not sleep
The night felt like an eternity
A five the sleep took me away
Like the wind in trees
Going on in eternity
A Woman I became
Full of fear and agony
I died in childbirth
Twenty years I spent
With you
When I woke up
My bed was full of blood
Even though it was a dream
The body suffered a great deal
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In the Street
In the end
We are always
Alone
No one care
If you live or die
Just you don’t
Die in their home
It is ok
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Outdoor Dying
Tired and out of hope
Just trying to stay alive
A little longer
Without knowing why
The wind and the rain
Takes the best of me
(Not that much left)
Soon only memories
Will remain
Untouched by
The relentless rain
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The Goodwill
Waiting for the doctor
This time they will pass
The final judgement
For those who cannot
Pay there is no remedy
I cannot pay
A friendly pat on the shoulder
Some tranquilizer and
I will be on my own
Slowly dying
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Trapped in a Jar
Anxiety will not crush you
Just torn you apart
A little bit
Eventually incapacitate
Your mind and soul
Nothing worse
Than that
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Turning Inside
As the snow keeps falling
Things get worse
Turning away from the
Difficult things that are
Caused by the inner struggle
Between adaption and
Self realization
Being introverted as part of
The dying process
Turning away from friends
Seeing no meaning of talking
Failed going to Holland
Did not dare to use my last money,
No loan, no friends, no confidence
Telling anyone
Ambivalent of the consequences
When borrowing money from
My daughter, turning the
parent-daughter relation
Upside down, just wanted
To feel well, feel my power
Inner strength, to laugh and
Get away from the self destructive
Existence called reality
My bad reality someone else’s
Dream a paradox, being told
That what you do is bad every day
Kills your senses and self respect
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Endgame
Is life worth living
What is good life?
People struggle to survive
Dying and defying
Death
That is painful
But is giving
Strength a little bit
Again the
Cycle of life
Is being closed
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Meaning of Life
Maybe life has a meaning
But in the end it does not
Matter
It still too much suffering
To be worth it
Meaning for whom
What agenda drives
Your meaning
Your country, The church
Or maybe Ayn Rand
Never mind in the end
Is not worth it
You die alone
Anyway
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