Surviving Being a Partner to a Bipolar

Living with a bipolar partner can be very traumatic. All conflicts tend to be extreme. Whatever you are doing is completely wrong. You don’t deserve any credit for anything. No matter what you have done so far is never enough.

Then after that comes the change. She is so sorry for what happened and what she has done. Then there is a slight chance that you can agree on something. This agreement she might keep or not. But the that is s good start.

Once this pattern has repeated itself enough often. One start to adapt and create strategies for handling it. Eventually however it gets you and you can give up talking about your needs since they are not acceptable if he/ she does not feel well or is frustrated for one reason or another. It can be a family quarrel with a mother or something at work. You will have to carry the burden of that by being the target of aggression and merciless criticism for something completely different like putting the children to bed too late or in the “wrong ” way.

Shopping

The city is filled with people trying to sell you things, lifestyle, coke or their own life story (true or fake) The crazy art of selling nothing for something to someone. I try to avoid this place since I am out of money.

But new strange things happen and curiosity hunts the cat. A wonder formula for selling was being sold. Big audience of the same people hearing the same things as soo many times before. And then the disappointment of being there to listen on a 4 hour sales pitch.

Substance yes a little bit, credibility none. why does so many sales people trying to fool you? When I left the people of city had left and I did not buy a thing only enjoying the small green leafs on trees this late spring

 

The oracle

Once I went to the oracle for solution

Desperate and lonely I had to long searched

For answer from every profession on earth

Freezing in the cold I waited outside the cave

The oracle was fat and small, he had a man

Translating the wisdom from Korean to English

You are a very difficult case the oracle told me

And made some kind sound to let the spirits go away

His hands moved up and down my body while he made

Mysteries sounds after an hour the translator told me

Come back tomorrow he will have to rest now

The next morning I went back, the same process followed

A lot of movements and hushing. You are very complicated

background, very complex. The oracle says he can only

Liberate you to 30 per cent.,,

OK I thought, lightning the burden by 30 per cent is ok

So I let him make his ritual…

Did I become free? Well maybe 30 per cent is not enough

But I wished that he had taken the right part of my problem