Middle Earth Life

What is the meaning

Of my life, just a jittery

Scheme of

Confusion and frustration

Long days of working

Eternal conflicts about

Trivial things or

Extreme anxiety and the

Need to create conflicts

Frustration and patterns

That repeat themselves

Eternal

Nightmare

The restless night

Has started

Filled with

Screams and

Frustration

The nightmare and memories

Comes back to haunt us

As well as screaming kids

And frustrated spouses

Every night I return

Every day a relief

Disconnected

Running fast

Trying to forget

What happened

What I could not

Deal with

I disconnected myself

I did not know what

To say so

I did not say anything

Silencing opportunity

Now I have to climb

Up again from the pit

Nine Years

I see you walking away

While the snow is falling

How could I know

That after nine years

We would hate

Each other

So much that we

Not even share bed

Anymore

Life is so short

And so much time

Will be spent fighting

Small things leading

To conflicts everlasting

Will be our destiny

Can we change

Will we change

I do not know

Time and madness

Will tell

No Home

Travel across the sea

On the way to home

There was no home

Anymore only

Battlefields everywhere

Life is a terrible place

Whether in war or peace

Fighting is always lost

In the end

Rusted Machine

Who am I?

I do not listen

Anymore and

To any reason

Good or bad

Flexible as a

Corroded padlock

Anxiety beyond

Reason became

My destiny and

Overlord

Surviving

Some days passes slowly

Just want more from life

I need more than surviving

I need to feel the joy of life

Now it’s unlikely

Maybe there is a change

Even though it seems

Extremely unlikely

On the Run

On the run

From the inevitable

Disaster that

Eventually will catch

Up blaming

Us all for our incompetence

Whatever we do

It all depends on her mode

Of the moment

Trashing us to pieces

Year after year