Evening

Radiant, aggressive people

Running around the house

Losing out as normally

The body and mind is weak

Tired, fainting, no energy

Pulling, pushing myself

Together without knowing

Why I do it

Morning Routine

Every morning the same routine

The same conflicts

And the running

Like a rat

Up and down the stairs

Running out

Coming back

Losing, not finding, forgetting

And eventually

She is gone

In a cloud of smoke

Missing the bus

And her life

Friends

Embracing change

Whatever it means

Is so hard

Especially scaling down

Leaving thins behind

Not keeping everything

My life was so hard

When it comes to leaving

Trying to keep every false

Friend forever

Being so lonely

Passing By

Looking out of the window

Seeing the clouds passing by

Covering the pale blue sky

Makes think of why I left you

That bad night

Instead of taking the fight

But losing fights has been my life

And eventually you get tired of it

Spouse

All that time wasted

Helping you to thrive

And prosper

While I slowly

Faded away

Like a flower

Without water

Life is a madman’s game

You can play it well

But whatever you do

He sets the rules

They are changing

All the time

When he

Suddenly out of a wim

Changing his mind

You on the receiving end

No one there to support

You all alone

You try to stand

While he is beating

You bad

Then he leaves you in the gutter

This is my game he says

Smiling and walk away

You have to get home

To prepare for

The next day

In the game

Losing Ground

Piece by piece

You lose yourself

When you have run out of energy

Resources, money

Every opportunity can become a threat

Of proving your incompetence

Your value is always limited now

Where is my place

Where can i reverse this tide pf destruction

Or is it to late?

Retreat

The days are short

In the north

More like a combined

Dawn and dusk

Creating a depressive

Mode of inaction

Retreating and defeats

Is in my mind

Lost causes and cold very

Cold nights