Past the Future

My time is lost

Passed out into

Nothingness and

Trivial procedures

That other finds

So very important

Feeling detached,

Feeling lost

Feeling frustrated

And castrated

Processing and A Wall

The mind is rotating

In circles around itself

Lost in so many ways

Trying to find a way

To have it functional

A connection with everything

Inside myself

Comprehend

Trying to make a meaning

Out of this

Does it matter

The story will soon

Be wiped out

Like writing in the

Sand

El Camino

Once open a time

I lost my direction

Without finding

A new purpose

Went looking for the future

But all I found was the past

Again and again

Repeating old patterns

With new people

Therefore eventually

I let it go

Let it be

Accepting the loss

Of future

And past

On Hatred

Hatred is always a failure

Still such a relieving feeling

Making the mind strong and quick

Still so destructive

Still so maiming

This eternal temptation is so strong

Being losen from the responsibility of

Being human

The Maze

When ones mind is restless

Wandering, meandering

Away

Quickly to unknown destinations

Into the past or present even the future

Late at night or early morning

When small things becomes big

And big things small

Know then that this too

Shall pass

And leave the mind to itself

Family

Shame and guilt

For failing to succeed

Failing to be viable

Causing distress and sorrow

Just standing in the shadow

While the happy ones

Throw rocks and insults