Fear can be a way to live

A way to find peace

Avoiding all the dangers

Avoiding all the conflicts

Avoiding all the difficulties of man

Just watching the trees moving in the wind

It´s gets so boring

Why do I fight?

I fight even though
I do not know
If there is any meaning

Lonely and lost
In foreign land
I hide

Only to discover
That the enemy
Sees me
But not my friends


I try to read
getting my lost mind together again
this is me and not me.
This is my pain
I am not longer able
to focus
I lost time
Lost sight
Lost hope
And I did not die
I am just living on and on
Where am I?


I am lost
here in the snow
watching as life passes by
on the outside

The agony is grinding
my mind
The sleep long gone
at ten