Like the pain of being
Existing
Sometimes it is almost
Gone
Now it is
Very present
The Pain of Being
Deep Shame
Escaping is not an option
Only persistent presence
In the moment
Will give some relief and exhaustion
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Inside Us
Inside there are
So much fear
And a great deal of pain
We can deny this fact
Or live with it
But it will stay
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Pressure And Pain
The pain is immense
It is an opened wound
That I carry around
All of the time
Normally hidden
But now it is opened
Burning like fire
Eventually it will
Do me in
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Square One
Life is pain
From start
To end
Back to the
Negotiation table
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Cold Water
When the anxiety gets
Too mighty
Too strong and powerful
Like a river of rage
And fear
Cold, cold river
Like in the far north
Where the trees will not grow
One try to survive
It is hard and confusing
Just being here
Eventually it might work
At the moment
I am under the ice
Looking for open water
And bluer skies
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The Navigation Act
Sometimes we have to navigate in bad water being
Lost among family and friends
That have their own problems
Such is life,
That when we need help the most
It seems to be farther away
Than we can reach
We are trapped in a limbo
Being to weak to get out of the trap
But to strong to sub comb
And here we are waiting for
The iceberg to melt
So that our bad ship
Might reach the
West Indies
Going by Greenland
Was not a good idea
Even though the name
Seemed to promise
A good time
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Disruptions
I lost my life
I lost my meaning
The path disappeared
Over night,
A sort of repetitive pattern
I would show in my life
Huge contrasts and a dramatic
Breakup from past relation and meanings
Things, matter and economy became upside down
As I tried to get out of the dizziness
Finding a new way of being
It left scars in the soul
Bleeding and screaming for safety
Avoiding every risk
Making life dull and boring
And soon enough
It was time to disrupt
Again and again
Until the bitter end
That is now
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Desperate
Pain is a useful strategy
Sometimes it is working
Most of the times
It does not
Just blocking all intentions
All actions
Still it repeat it self
Again and again
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Separation of Things and People
All those many lies
All bad things
And loss of life
Then being thrown away
Like a piece of worn out clothes
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