On History

The history repeat itself

Creating endless

Monotonous patterns

Eternal questions and conflicts

Are being weaved to a huge web,

A carpet covering

Our mind and thoughts

We are here because

The great ecosystem, Gaia

Has put us here

Trapped in our own limitations

Our own mind

Still this is not true, sometimes

A surprise happens and we rise

Again and again

Above ourselves

Fidelity

The spring is finally here

Fidelity to the patterns

Since long time engraved

Guarantees the same outcome

Year after year

Prisoner in my own prison

The day passes quickly

A the night is sleepless

Doubting I ever brake this

Destructive pattern

A miracle is needed

A miracle will not come

The light is the sky and

Earth is black

Anxiety on Ice

Sometimes you are trapped

In your anxiety and worry

Fearing the worst

Expecting the apocalypse

But in reality

Nothing happened

You are trapped by

Your own fantasy

Into a world of horror

When this happened

A hundred times it is

Recognisable

Acting inn and out

Stress is something

That is always there

Underneath the calm

Surface

It detaches you from

What is you

A strategy is needed

Or a place or situation

Where meditation and

Relaxation is possible

Sometimes the pattern

Is so deep inside you

You have to be conscious

Of what is going on

First

Circles

Travelling in my memory

I have to be there

Every day, every minute of my life

Reliving all the memories from many

Years

I did not choose this life

This life chooses me

And still sometimes

It’s the other way around

Mercury

I hate this situation

Just been caught in this pattern

For the best of to many good years

It is becoming worse and worse

Now I am completely blocked again

Cannot work with the things that

Eventually will help me out of this

Situation

Trapped and trapped again