Problems Pro Solution

Problem that exist

That I have to do

Something about

Problem that don’t exist

But that I believe that

I have to do something about

Problems that I am not aware of and

Therefore do not act on

Something that is not a problem

But joy that I forgot

While

Thinking on all

Those

Problems

Tired

I am so tired

The energy is gone

I am not tired

To hear that I got so much

Problem

I am tired of being owned by others

Defining me

I will rise

To Let Go

For a long time I waited

In the middle of life

For the salvation but only got

Denunciation

Realizing I would

Never reach my goal

And that the storm

would not let me Go,

I had to let go and live

The best way I could and that

 

Not the talkative psychologist

Or the medicating psychiatrist

Nor the compassionate old lady

Next door had any answer to give

 

Seeing

Trying to keep an blind eye

Still I know

That everything I do is borrowed time

I have to face the danger or not face it all

Keeping a blinders on

To deal with the problems is so important

That it

Spring depression

Every spring is the same feeling

Depression, depression and frustration

It always comes in April

Feeling like a failure and frustrated like crazy

I am on the same place every year

Trying to cope and handle

Fight not to kill myself

Falling apart and

Slowly healing in the summer

Save me from those feelings

But nature has its way

The New Day

New day and continuum of the same problem

I am desperate to solve this problem

And thereby creating more problem

For my self

To fight requires courage and fantasy

Nothing is given

Everything is taken

I want to change things now

I want to make things better

Or worse

But not the same

 

Half

Now they gone cut me in half
and half
I will be
This is not the ultimate option
I will be the half-man 
half-witted 
and not much more
but this is the price
I pay
The life I never opt for
but were given
by some distant god
in a sky
or maybe he lives in a pie
however
to be cut in half does
not do me any god
at all