Hide Out

Fear and shames

Took me here

Hiding from


Trying to erase

My existence

As much as


Failure is



I never try


I always say

Who Silenced Me?

What made me silent

What happened

Why did I hide in shame

For so long

Why can’t I protect my self

From other peoples aggressions

So many questions

So few answers

Cascading failure

Feeling bad and crazy

I manage to repeat

My failure today again

Frustration and shame

Is so hard to carry around

I wish that  was Different

But time past is time lost

Only the long days will ease

The pain


Meeting the pain
Seeing my failed
Inner self

I am trying to hide
Hide from shame
My shame is hard to carry
I lost my self
I lost my soul
And now I am climbing
Out of that hole
Acceptens is gold
But better is breaking

The wall


Fighting the lonely battle

Again and again

Why is life so filled

With repetition

Why can I not change

I am trying

Again and again

Banging my head into the wall


Hiding away from other people
In a place with a lot of people
I am shy
I am ashamed
I failed

Trying to cope
Waiting for wounds to heal
Aroused by the feeling
Of shame and anxiety
I create new things