To carry around
The burden of distrust
From your family
Will stop you from
Growing up
The Burden
Deep Shame
Escaping is not an option
Only persistent presence
In the moment
Will give some relief and exhaustion
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Inside the Labyrinth
Losing my sense of self
Who I am
What I want
Everything becomes unclear
I am very lost here
With people very busy
And focused on them self
The pattern is built on pain
Avoiding and giving
And shame of course
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Hiding in Plain Sight
Fear of being discovered
Naked, full of shame and pain
I am a lonely man
Surround by people dependent
And hostile to me
I tried to break the pattern
But I am not strong enough
So I dwell here in a borrowed room
Far away from all frustration
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Conclusion
There are so many
Things to remember
So much shame
That number of failures
When leaving it all
Behind it does not matter
At all
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Shaming
So the story goes
My friend has been shamed
On the internet tribune
There is no justice
Anymore, just opinions
Anyone, anywhere
With or without reason
Entertainment for the masses
Destruction for the community
But life is more than that
Or not
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Thinking
Fear is a strong
Driving force
Shame as well
But it does not
Heal you,
Keeping you trapped
In your own mind
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A Fake Life
To live without an income
Is to live in the shadow
Of other people’s money
Their will and their whim
Moves you around like
A puppet
The shame is great enough
To kill you, through you
In front of a train or tram
Instead you hide
Building a fake identity
That eventually becomes
What you are
Not solving, just hiding
Because the shame
Is so great
Where to start from that?
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Answer to Shame
I am on the run
From the shame of being
Such a bad father
Being such an incompetent son
And impotent lover as well
No one loves my soul
I am so bad
And I am so tired of being
Projected as bad for not fulfilling
Other people’s dreams
I am not bad
Just the answer to your projections
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