Coming Out

Playing the game of being

In the world

Being social,

Almost normal

While my mind is hiding

Changing course quickly

Like a supertanker

Turning

Hiding Away

Life includes hope and hatred

Strong feelings tearing you apart

Looked into my own mind

I try to avoid contacts with

Other humans as much

As I can

In order to work with the fragments

That once was the functioning me

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Conflicts

Tired in the sofa

Exhausted

Not able to move

Still I want to fight

I want to win

Just go for it

Tired because of

The resistance that

Consist of wanting

To go and knowing

The anger and frustration

Of me doing my own thing

The inner conflict that

Has thrown me into depression

Because whatever you do

It is wrong in one way or

Another

Writing a Blog

Writing is a hard thing. Being critical does not work. Sometimes one just have to improvise. Writing comes from writing and the more you do it, the better. Life is short and the thing we put energy into effect us profoundly they change our direction in life. The stage is empty and so is the floor. To write on the WordPress or Twitter is to enter the stage and start playing. The audience however I’d or small will show up eventually if they know that you are there and play their tone.

Reading Circle

We just don’t understand each other

Me and my friends

Reading books together

Still not together

We read the same book

Still not the same book

Talking about the book

Still we don’t understand

Each other

Surface and depths

Structure and details

Eternal outsider

Outside
Inside
Upside
Downside
Close your eyes and then…
Run, run, run
Talk, talk, talk
Listen
Smile, Smile, Smile
Run, run, run

Go home
Sleep
Then forget everything about it